Fight that Feeling

Good morning, well good afternoon. I work late nights so my mornings can vary anywhere from 5am on a Sunday getting ready to sing in the church choir, to 12:45am on a day like today with just a few moments to steal away and write before I go back to work. I'm fighting that strong urge to have a bad attitude this morning/afternoon whatever. I can't afford to be negative working in a call center where the atmosphere is already tainted with fear and complaining. So I'm just going to get it all out here and now, quickly before I go pick up my co-worker Chatty. I mean Cindy. She is a sweetie, but she can really talk! :) So I'm gathering my thoughts now and in the next few minutes when I get in the shower. Speaking of which I really better get moving, I still have to iron and get to her house in the next 20 minutes. But I HAVE TO WRITE. It may not look like much right now, or be all that enjoyable to read, but I just have to do it. I can't fight that feeling anymore. Everyday for the last year or so I have heard the small voice on the inside which I've recognized to be God's voice telling me to WRITE NOW! And I just kept pushing it down, ignoring Him and flat out being disobedient to the call. Well I won't despise small beginnings....this is a start. I'll just keep writing, a little everyday. The rest is up to God now cause I'm doing my part. I'm writing Lord, please help me!