In the Light of Day

Wow it is morning again. Its eleven o'clock and I'm actually dressed and ready to go. Too bad I was supposed to be there at nine. Yet I still feel accomplished because the sun is still up and I have a few hours before I go to work to feel like I'm not a vampire. I don't even work the graveyard shift. If I did, I'd probably just quit my job. I volunteer some mornings at my church in the marketing department, helping copy and print the CDs that the sermons are recorded on. I just don't have the motivation to move very fast today. I think it may be called exhaustion, or maybe just light fatigue. I didn't get to sleep until close to 4am last night, and Jay called me at eight to make sure I was up. I actually rolled out of bed around nine, but as I said before, that's when I was supposed to be there. I even told Sister Mary that I would help her with something when she got there at ten. Speaking of Jay, he just sent me a text message saying how much he appreciates my support and encouragement right now. Its funny how he seems to know when I am getting frustrated. Cause I was just sitting here thinking I probably wouldn't have been up so late last night if he wasn't here until 1am. I just couldn't sleep well after he left. I felt the weight of his discouragement trying to creep over on to me, and instead of praying I just let it push me around. It seems so obvious right now in the light of day that I should have just prayed and went to sleep. But in the darkness of the night things can get distorted. Well, I suppose I better at least try to show up at the church, cause I don't want to reschedule for my day off. I have enough to do already. God help Jay to get through this trial of his faith, and give me the strength to let You love him through me so I can continue to be a support and encouragement. I know he needs that, but frankly sometimes I don't want to give it. Help me to love him the way he has loved me over the last five years. Unselfishly. In Jesus' name. Amen.